January 2,2010
What do we call this- the 10s? the ot 10s? time will tell.
Today- I wonder- how do we raise individuals that are so important to us- so much our world- and yet they don't know it- they don't know how special they are to us. I am now raising a second generation- my step grandchild- and he can not seem to understand- to integrate into his being- that he is more important than the air I breathe- How can that be?
I spent the evening with two of my biological children- so wonderful- so miraculous to see them as the beings they are and enjoy them so intensely- and yet realize even they don't know how much my heart is invested in their wholeness- their life.
How do we give that to another generation? what does it take to make another human being feel worthwhile? I spend my life- all 56 years of it to date- trying to give to another generation a stronger sense of themselves- and never know that I have acheived any of what I set out to give..... that really is what life is about - investing and hoping for a return- but really never knowing.

I started this blog a year ago- thinking about my interest in cooking- and here I am - rambling about what value my life is- truly aging gracelessly. I will move on to cooking with alcohol with my next post.........I have some GREAT recipes